Ryan,
I would like to second what has been said here. Keep posting, and let us know how you feel. I think what makes EN World great is its sense of community. You, like everyone else on these boards, are a valued member of our online community.
Thalmin, your point about people who don't pity others is well taken. It reminds me of a saying that I like to quote. (I am tempted to use it in my sig.)
"If I am not for myself, who will be. If I am only for myself, what am I? And if not now, when?" -- Hillel.
To me, this means that I should consider my own needs and wishes while being concerned about others. By starting this thread, you have shown a great deal of insight and concern about others on these boards. The last bit of the saying, by the way, remings me to take action on important things -- including being compassionate to others. (Thus endeth my philosophical musings.)
Hang in there, Ryan. I hope one day to see you at an EN World gathering. You seem to be a remarkable human being, who is trying to face adversity with courage and dignity. It is a pity that some cannot see this in you.
You are in my thoughts and in my prayers. Peace.