Just a staggeringly odd outlook.
What? What on earth are you trying to say, here?
Yeah...I’m sorry you’ve had bad luck with people, I guess, but...seriously it is not remotely normal or healthy to see the world the way you describe.
I mean that very seriously. The way you talk about love and trust and people is not healthy. That is way more important than not understanding some game concepts, but as far as it interacts with game concepts...I simply wouldn’t expect to understand a lot of game concepts, since so much of the game is based on a well adjusted social understanding of humanity, culture, religion, etc.