It's true. Time heals all wounds. But sometimes it's hard to find the time for such things. I will have it eventually. So much stress and worry isn't much good for anyone. I, on the other hand, can handle it, even when it seems like I dont. I can, I know I can because I have you guys here to help me. For a brief instant I can be here and remember all my smiles, my fun, my entertainment. I can re-live when life wasn't like it is now. But the ramifications of her death are daunting. And no matter how you look at the situation, it is my brother's fault that she is dead. Yes there are circumstances you folks dont know about, and no, I'll not be making you privvy to them. Do not think that selfish, or stupid. It's personal, as simple as that. How does one cope with the fact that her brother, a man...a boy she loves so dearly, so whole-ly (spelling?!), will no doubt be spending time locked up? I'm afraid to look at him that way, and yet, that's the way things are. Please pray for justice, be that as cruel or as kind as it will be. I will just have to deal with that as it comes, even though there is no consolation.