Ashwyn
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It's good to know I'm not alone in this. Thanks for your post.Altamont Ravenard said:
Thanks again. I'll talk to my doctor about depression. I was on medication for it before, but it didn't seem to help that much. It never really struck me that I could have depression, since I don't feel depressed very often. I have an appointment this week, so I'll bring it up. I was also afraid to say anything because, feeling alone, I thought it was something that a) wouldn't be fixable and b) was too strange and embarrasing. Now that I know I'm not alone, I feel like I can make some progress.randomling said:I have lots of concentration problems too, and some memory problems too, so I can relate there, although I'm pretty sure mine is down to depression rather than ADD (I certainly manifest a lot more depression symptoms than ADD symptoms). I'd be a hypocrite telling you to go right to the doctor, because it's what I have to do, and I'm avoiding it too.(I have to find a new doctor first and it's a *hassle*.)
Hey, you're very much not alone in that! Alt just posted he gets the same thing, and so do I - especially with games I'm running, where after a very short while inspiration just seems to run out. After that, it gets very hard to generate new ideas on it or even want to have anything to do with it. For the record that's something else I attribute to depression, it's symptomatic of a general lack of motivation that pervades my whole life. (Sucks, doesn't it?)
Hm. I enjoy familiar stuff, but anything in your head that's sucking the joy out of things you ought to be enjoying sounds like very nasty depression to me. I'm not a doctor and I can't diagnose you, but it sounds to me like you should be going to a doctor and having a long chat with them, to see if you could be on medication that would help.
Again - I know exactly what you mean! One of the things that completely freezes me out when creating RPG stuff is focusing on the rules too much or too early. I found the best way to deal with that for me was to get a good handle on the flavour of my setting first and then decide whether D&D is the best system to deal with it. (If not, there are lots of other systems to look at!) My advice would be to stop worrying about the rules or even what system you're going to use for it, just create what you want to create.
Hm, I like music too and find it very affecting at times. (It has to be good music though.)
What the hell is normal, anyway? Everybody has a different mindset and different capabilities. That's normal. On top of that, you're in the Hivemind! (Serious moment coming up.) I'll tell you for absolute certain that almost all of us are unusually intelligent or perceptive in some way, and the majority of the "Hive core" have self-worth issues, depression or other emotional issues, abusive childhoods, or some combination. That's part of the reason we were all hanging around at the same time talking to each other and not dealing with our lives.
Don't think you're abnormal for being abnormal. You're who you are, that's enough for us - OK?
And my email offer still stands. Talk to you later, li'l bear.
I don't like to get my hopes up, but being able to enjoy things again would be very nice.
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