Tell me what's so good about life

[Gundark]

Because I've honestly forgotten.

I just want to die. The only time when I don't feel that way is when I'm asleep. I'm so tired; tired of feeling this way, tired of crying, tired of everything. I'm so sorry for my mom, because she's so wonderful and she's got a kid like me, who's always feeling so terrible and guilty over nothing. She doesn't deserve it, but she'd be sad if I died. This is the only thing stopping me right now.

So, for her sake, please tell me why I need to keep waking up every day, because I just don't want to anymore.

You need to talk to you mother about how your feeling. She'll care about what you have to say. Also someone else mentioned it but maybe going to see a doctor or counsellor is probably what you need. Sounds like you are really tired of going on becasue of what's happening in your life. Communicate to those that care about you and that you care about on how you are feeling, this is important. Sounds like you really care about your mother and love her a lot, sounds like she would be desvastated if you died. Talk to her about how you are feeling, or find someone to listen to you. It has been said before, but things do get better.

 

[Anime Kidd]

Theres not much I could say that hasnt already been said, but hang in there and wait for the sun to shine. We're all thinking of you.

Myself, I guess I was despressed for awhile, but never realized it (or I kept denying that I was). One night I broke down crying and my family talked to me until 4am. I never really figured out why either.

 

[Mystic_23]

I feel I need to chime in here as well.

I have been living with a depression problem (although from the sound of it, not as sever as yours) for several years. I would feel much the same as you for periods of weeks and then come out of it for a short time before being thrown back into it. I've recognized this as something abnormal for at least 5 years, but I never did anything about it.

Finally, last October, I got sick of it. I didn't want to feel that way anymore. So, I simply went to my doctor and talked to him about it. He thought that it sounded like depression, and proscribed Wellbutrin for it. I've felt so much better since then. I still have moments where I feel down, but it doesn't last for weeks like it used to.

Don't do what I did. Don't let this go for a long time. It's just not worth it. Perhaps medication isn't the best solution, but it worked for me. Partially, just doing something about it made me feel a little better.

 

[Quickbeam]

First, let me reiterate for the hundredth time, that people caring about you is a good thing. You've definitely got that right here at EN World, and I'd wager all about you as well.

Next, go to the nearest bookstore and read passages from any of Robert Fulghum's books. They're full of inspiring and amusing anecdotes exactly like the one Lady Ilsay posted. If nothing else, they WILL make you smile, and that alone is worht living for.

Finally, there is one thought that I'd like to share with you. Life will not hand you more than you can face one day at a time. You can make it through today. Don't worry about tomorrow or yesterday -- you can't control either of them. Grab onto any of the myriad array of "good things" (or better yet caring people) mentioned throughout this thread, and today will take care of itself.

Find a way to share life's challenges and triumphs with others, and never forget that change is inevitable. For you, that likely means something positive is just around the corner.

 

[Steverooo]

Still no replies from Uz, here or in E-mail...

 

[Wrath of the Swarm]

At the risk of being an insensitive jerk and disrupting this outpouring of love and support:

Have any of you even considered the possibility that this person might just be trollling for attention? Depressed people do sometimes put posts like the OP on messageboards they frequent, but so do people who just want to generate a response.

 

[Rel]

Have any of you even considered the possibility that this person might just be trollling for attention? Depressed people do sometimes put posts like the OP on messageboards they frequent, but so do people who just want to generate a response.

I'm not willing to take that chance.

 

[Stockdale]

Not insensitive, in my opinion. A hardy dose of skeptism may be warranted. Nonetheless, Uz appears to be in trouble. Therefore, it important to provide some measure of assistance, even though none may actually be needed; rather than do nothing. If I looked like I needed help, I hope someone would stop to aid me even though no help was required.

 

[Steverooo]

At the risk of being an insensitive jerk and disrupting this outpouring of love and support:

Have any of you even considered the possibility that this person might just be trollling for attention? Depressed people do sometimes put posts like the OP on messageboards they frequent, but so do people who just want to generate a response.

And I say: If somebody wants attention THAT bad, you give it to them!

The alternative (taking a real suicide as a troll) doesn't work, for me!...

 

[Pyske]

Uz does have 200+ non-trolling posts here.

. . . . . . . -- Eric