Tell me what's so good about life

[Truth Seeker]

At the risk of being an insensitive jerk and disrupting this outpouring of love and support:

Have any of you even considered the possibility that this person might just be trollling for attention? Depressed people do sometimes put posts like the OP on messageboards they frequent, but so do people who just want to generate a response.

And secondly, if this troubled mind is indeed in peril, this person might be taken back at the overwhelming reponse. It can be staggering to witness humanity's grace in helping those who need it, as this forum has done in the past few months.

With Morrus.
With Paladin and Wife.

If a ploy...if so, then shame is the restrictor for the silent. The gathering of beings here has risen beyond the of duty in helping people, and as far I as know, this is only site to do so, by far (limited exposure to other sites), I wait to see how this turn out. And to the young person, I know that feeling, around 17 years old I was at the edge, that abyss wanting to get me.

I am now going on 38 this year. My regret, to this day, if I gave in, then...I would not have been able to witness humanity's shining moments...like these. Although small in the happenings...I am glad that I am permitted to be blessed to see such things.

 

[Zappo]

There is nothing I can say that other people haven't said better. And still, after a few days, no answer. I would seriously consider tracking the IP address. It could be life or death.

 

[Henry]

Uzumaki, I wasn't originally going to post, figuring that so many here had already said what I am going to say, but I figured the words of one of my favorite authors couldn't hurt:

From Chaim Potok's The Chosen
"...A man must fill his life with meaning, meaning is not automatically given to life. It is hard work to fill one's life with meaning. That I do not think you understand yet. A life filled with meaning is worthy of rest. I want to be worthy of rest when I am no longer here. Do you understand what I am saying?"

These words were spoken from a Jewish father to his son, when he was very sickly and near death. He also let his son know that our span on this Earth is insignificant, but the meaning WE PUT INTO life is the significance. IT IS UP TO US. It is worthwhile to be WORTHY of rest.

Don't give up on it. And I echo the cry to seek help through one of the 1-800-numbers posted above, or to call your local church, synogogue, or house of worship, because there are literally THOUSANDS of organizations that can help you get in touch with the support to make good choices. There's nothing wrong with needing support; we all here get it one way or another.

Don't give up.

 

[BSF]

Wrath of the Swarm - Sure it is possible this is just a troll. So what? It is also possible that this is somebody that wants help. If I can help, then I will.

Steverooo - I haven't received a response to my email either. But, according to the profile information, Uzumaki was last online at 11:37 PM MST on 02-10-2004. So, some of the early posts may have been read. Let's take solace in the thought that perhaps she has sought help and has not been online because she is talking to other people. (I only say she, based on the info in her .sig, but that seems like it would be a good indictor.) Other than hoping for the best and posting/emailing, I am not sure how else to help.

Uzumaki - I hope the best for you. I hope that you are just taking some time away from EN World and will be back later to let us know that you are still here. Don't give up.

 

[Michael Tree]

Uzumaki, severe depression is often the result of a chemical imbalance in the brain. They way you're feeling may not have much to do with who you are, but with a physical disorder, not terribly different from feeling weak from the flu, having extreme emotions from alcohol, or feeling jittery and tense from too much caffeine.

While life circumstances play a part in creating depression, and affect how it feels, they're just as often created by the depression or made worse by the lack of energy and hope. Go to a doctor, get some medication. Then, once you don't have the weight of hopelessness on your shoulders, then you can work on your life. It seems impossible to change now, but a lot of that feeling is from the chemicals. It will pass, and in a few years you'll look back on yourself and thank yourself for helping yourself, like so many posters here have.

If you feel like you're going to commit suicide, don't wait to see someone. Tell your mom, or someone else nearby who you trust. Then go to your nearest hospital Emergency Room, and tell them you're feeling like killing yourself. They'll help you out, give you some medication for the short term, and introduce you to therapists and counselors who care about you and can help you in the long term.

 

[shadow]

"In the darkness of night look toward the stars."

"Even in the hour of greatest darkness hope springs eternal."

"The darkest hour still only has 60 minutes."

 

[Eridanis]

Wrath, if you want to continue, lets take it to email.

Excellent idea.

 

[Altamont Ravenard]

Uzumaki's been active today around 3:30 pm, I guess that's a good sign, but a better sign would be from you, Uzumaki, please tell us how you're doing...

AR

 

[kamosa]

I honesty don't know what I can say that hasn't already been said. I can tell you that things will change if you give it time. No matter how dark things seem now, no matter how overwhelming and hopeless things seem, there are reasons to go on. You just might not know about them yet. Making it through to the happy times that WILL come is the hardest part. Here are some different techniques that I have found.

1) Go outside for a walk in the sun- maybe in the park- and just try to relax and forget about all your problems. The sun will do you some good, and this may get you away from some of your problems.

2) Laughter- Go out and do something that you used to enjoy. Talk to a friend that makes you laugh. See a comedy. Game. Read a book. Listen to a song.

3) Chocolate!

4) Pick one thing that is bothering you, that makes you sad - no matter how small- and change it in a positve manner. This will allow you to see that you can positively affect your situation, that you matter.

5) Do something for someone else- no matter how small. It will make them happy, and it will make you feel useful and appreciated. Who knows, you might even enjoy the task.

Best wishes

 

[Uzumaki]

Still here, guys. Still here. Thank you, thank you, thank you. I've never felt as bad as I did a couple of days ago, but I don't feel that way right now. After I posted two days ago, I fell asleep until Mom came home. I told her how I was feeling and she stayed home yesterday and we made some cookies and a tower the cats can play on. She's the best mom in the world.

I've been on antidepressants for 15 months. I think I'll start looking at things I can do in addition to the medication, though. I've always been too good at depressing myself when I'm alone.

Right now is the first time I've read the whole thread, because I didn't want to start crying again when mom was here. Thank you for your kind words. I'll remember them the next time I feel things getting really bad.