Why do you bother? Well - that's a rough one I guess. And most people have been there. (And, pardon the sympathies of a stranger here, I know you don't know me much if at all - but I'm in that sort of mood tonight. Wanting to reach out and soothe what's hurting on others.) It's a place I've watched a number of my friends reach in the past few months - most of them artists of some sort, but some of them programmers and just depressive about their finances.
So, why do you bother? Well - first I'd assume because it'd rip your lungs out if you didn't draw. I know that's how it is when I'm not writing. Which is to say - that's how it's been for the last oh... *checks clock* two years now? Blasted school sucking all my time. But more than that - because if you don't bother, then things'll just go down hill faster. There's only so far it can go down before it *has* to come up - seriously, it's just a matter of waiting. You're here - in life - because you want to be, and you've got the control over your life to go where you want to go. Part of its luck. Part of its being willing to sit and go through the drudgery.
I've looked at your stuff. I *know* it's good. You know it's good. Heck, you practice more diligently than I ever could writing - just by demanding sketches of yourself like this via this thread. So - just keep getting better through the thin times and come out swinging for the fat ones. It really is going to work out in the end - you're got far too much talent to *not* to do that, so long as you don't convince yourself to stop. Settle in, make plans and be patient - you'll do fine.
If I could read the future I'd give you a better picture.
But in the meantime - assurances that there's plenty of others out there facing the same things as you, may help. It *will* turn out good in the end... so just curl up around chocolate and a good movie in the meantime.
