Reviews and Reviews
Joshua Randall said:
Why are we pussyfooting around here? Which publisher was this, and which product?
Actually, let's be honest here. It's Bottled Imp Games.
My company.
I'll set the record straight here, as it appears everything has been brought to a head here and all the cards are on the table.
Now everything's in the open, I feel much better about it all.
I may have overreacted about the review.
I was just trying to protect my company. That's all. Something I've spent tens of thousands of pounds on, and two hard years of my life...
In hindsight, it’s very easy to do.
I know I’m over sensitive, but I feel the need to set the record straight. And to actually write down what I’ve wanted to say since way before Liches was published.
But before I do that, let me set the record straight about Zombies…
I'd already had a 5* review from Gamewyrd. I was extremely happy about that (as Gamewyrd are a completely independent reviewer and it's nice to see your work get great reviews).
I knew the reviewer here was not going to give such a good review (he had previously informed me of such), so I suggested that he send it to me first. I guess I was guilty of judging him by my own standards, as although I didn’t expect a five star review, I know I would never post critically on the book of a friend or a colleague. Were I reviewing it, I would comment on the good (and indeed, I have done just that in several reviews)…
The LAST thing you want is to have someone close to you comment on your failings. There are three columns in the prestige classes in Zombies that have incorrect information in them. Believe me, no one is punishing themselves more than I am for that f*ck up. I absolutely hate getting stuff like that wrong.
I guess I led myself to believe (probably foolishly) that everything rested on this one single release. I’d said to myself ‘if it doesn’t manage to sell X copies, then it’s game over’.
And it *would* be foolish to keep on releasing books at a huge loss. And with the art and massive editing costs, BIG was making a huge loss on each book. 'Cut down on the art,' people say, but then Zombies wouldn’t be half the book it is today.
So I’m very close to my books. I’m just one person trying to do everything and, as you probably all know, that is just impossible.
I would like to say that I don’t feel I in any way badgered or pressured the reviewer to retract his review. I merely said that I felt that on top of the other review, pointing out the holes was less than favorable and that it would be best if he removed it. It’s nearly impossible to put yourself in that situation, because, well, hearing bad things about your books is so unbelievably hurtful. I suppose I never developed a skin thick enough to deflect it.
So I made a mistake, I was only trying to protect my company. Surely anyone can understand that.
I would like to say to the reviewer that I said that if it was a toss up between a 4 and a 5 on a review and there were no halfway marks, that I would always round up for a friend. I’m not entirely sure how that got misconstrued, but I think that would be only reasonable for anyone to expect that from a friend. I would expect a lower mark from a professional reviewer, but from a colleague or writing partner, I think I’m allowed to be disappointed.
Perhaps I’m not. Again, I’m only human and feelings are feelings…
Incidentally - I never expected to get such great reviews. I felt that Vampires didn’t in any way deserve the reviews it got. Rewriting it for the PDF edition found so many holes and errors.
But I’d like to clarify on my Liches comments. I think they were warranted (but no one was banned from my site – ever!) If a reviewer is going to review a product that a publisher has sent to them, they should at least read the book thoroughly enough to give it an accurate score, rather than slapping a rating on it after flipping through the pictures.
The sole reason Liches got so many great reviews is that Joe Kushner said ‘if anyone disagrees with my review – they should write their own reviews’ and they did – and to those people THANKS...
But actually, it’s with a surprisingly heavy heart that I am going to announce here that I will not be publishing any more books. It’s just far too difficult for me to take the criticism. It would be a lot easier if I wasn’t doing all of the work, but the emotional level involved in the creation process is just too intensive for me and I’m wrapped up in it far too much.
I’ve tried to take a step back, but hey, we all are what we are, and there’s very little we can do about it.
So to everyone I’ve pissed off – my sincere apologies!
I believe I am a good person who has only tried to do the right thing at all times. My only disgrace was that I’m way too emotional about it all…
I’d like to finish by saying that I think raising this issue here was extremely unfair, because this was a private issue and had nothing to do with anyone but the reviewer and myself.
But, like me, we're all only human.
That’s pretty much the sum of it. I really only wanted to tell a story. I guess it all got rather confused along the way...
Stuart