Didn't know him as well as others. I do recall his enthusiasm. He was into life. He knew he was fragile even before he contracted HIV and subsequently developed AIDS. He knew that most anything could overwhelm his impaired defenses and likely kill him. Didn't stop him from enjoying life,
I remember his crush on David Boreneaz of Angel and Buffy. I remember his enthusiasm for RPGs and his determination to continue in the hobby even after learning the true extent of his condition. I remember his optimism, his determination to live a long, full life.
I remember his despair when he learned just how bad things really were, and how he rallied from that despair. It took a lot to bring him down, but damned if he was going to stay down.
Ryan died because of a mistake he made. He admitted as much when he first told ENWorld of his condition. Ryan also died because of beauracratic mistakes, bad reactions to medicine, and a previously impaired immune system. Ultimately Ryan died because he was simply overwhelmed.
The one thing that kept him alive for so long was his determination. A determination to live and to experience all that life had to offer. Well, sometimes things win out over your desires, but damned if he was going to let them win without a fight.
I believe in life after death. I believe in reincarnation. I have no idea where Ryan is now but I like to think he's now a small boy around two giving his new parents headaches, healthy as a horse, and looking forward to a future in athletics and crushes from boys and young men much like he once was.
I remember his crush on David Boreneaz of Angel and Buffy. I remember his enthusiasm for RPGs and his determination to continue in the hobby even after learning the true extent of his condition. I remember his optimism, his determination to live a long, full life.
I remember his despair when he learned just how bad things really were, and how he rallied from that despair. It took a lot to bring him down, but damned if he was going to stay down.
Ryan died because of a mistake he made. He admitted as much when he first told ENWorld of his condition. Ryan also died because of beauracratic mistakes, bad reactions to medicine, and a previously impaired immune system. Ultimately Ryan died because he was simply overwhelmed.
The one thing that kept him alive for so long was his determination. A determination to live and to experience all that life had to offer. Well, sometimes things win out over your desires, but damned if he was going to let them win without a fight.
I believe in life after death. I believe in reincarnation. I have no idea where Ryan is now but I like to think he's now a small boy around two giving his new parents headaches, healthy as a horse, and looking forward to a future in athletics and crushes from boys and young men much like he once was.
