Micah Sweet
Level Up & OSR Enthusiast
That is a very personal thing to say. You don't know me. My connection to D&D is tied to a very close friend who was like a brother to me for 25 years. His passing away a few years ago hurt me deeply, and I have a very hard time feeling as much joy as I used to engaging in activities, like playing D&D, that were important to us. I very rarely view movies in the theater for the same reason.Then you shouldn't expect the designers of 5E games to design to your expectations, not their own. And they certain are not going to waste their time trying to make you happy, when you don't even want to play their game in the first place.
It does make me wonder though why you've tied your identity so much to a silly little game that every single thing done to it that stomps on your childhood desires is taken so to heart? Isn't it time for your life to move on?
But before I met him I engaged in D&D by reading the books and exploring the worlds of the game, and I can still enjoy that. Every time they change what I used to love about it reminds me of what I lost. I have lots of other good things in my life now, and I'm generally a pretty happy guy, but it still hurts, and gaming is just too big a part of my life and identity to give up.