"It saddens me to see any of my students choose this path when there are so many other options, so many better ways to deal with your grief. It makes me feel so powerless now that it is too late, as I could have found him counseling, or helped him more, or reminded him that finals grades are not everything. But...it's just...I can't help but feel partially responsible, since I was the one who pushed to have him admitted. He was enthusiastic and motivated, so I thought he could overcome his inherent mental handicap...I...I guess I chose wrong..."