(OT) To all my friends from the IRs and ENWorld

[Edena_of_Neith]

(look of profound sadness)

I believe in fun games. I hope most of your remember the IR well, and I hope the Rokugan IR is fun.
My regrets to those of you, including you Forrester and you Darkness, who did not have fun.

I also believe in family.
When I ran the 1st, 2nd, and 3rd IRs, I had a family.
I had three brothers, and they were all married.
I had three nieces.
I had three nephews.
I had a father.
I had a mother.
I even had a nice little dog.

I took, at that time, things for granted that are beyond any possibility now. Things like:

Going with the family on canoe trips.
Visiting various members of the family for Christmas.
Going out to eat with members of the family.
Talking with members of the family via the internet or otherwise.

Strange, how the norm can become the unthinkable, in such a short time.

Something happened to my family.
I am not sure what that something was.
It started with a minor display of anger on the part of a single family member.
A chain reaction occurred. A chain reaction, which nobody could stop, and all attempts to stop it failed on everyone's part.

Now, I have no family, except for one last person - and I am the lucky one.
NOBODY in the family I once had, has any family now. The darkness took everyone, and spared none.

I will not have computer access for much longer.
It is likely I will lose all internet access for a long time.
Right now, I do not feel like being online (I am here now because I remember you, my friends.)
Frankly, I do not know if I will feel like being online anymore, ever again.

I wish I was being melodramatic, or super-over-the-top melodramatic, as I was recently accused of being.
I wish that very much.
Unfortunately, I am very greatly understating the situation.

If only I could make you realize just how greatly I am understating things.

I say farewell to all of you, my friends.
Cheers to all of you.

Edena_of_Neith

Finis

 

[The Forsaken One]

A fond memmory will remain of a great person.
A wish of strengh of will I send with you.
And a still hope of seeing you back again someplace shall I cherish.

Farewell and may you have to strengh to make it through.

 

[Knight Otu]

These are sad news, Edena.

You will be remembered here on ENWorld.

 

[Festy_Dog]

I remember a while ago when you spoke about talking your dad back into eating. It sounded pretty serious and I was worried because, well, you're a good person and these things shouldn't happen to people like you. Now I sit here and type, blown away by merely the thought of what could have happened. Though I will never know how you feel exactly, and I hope I never do seeing the extent of what has happened, you have my support. If I could help in anyway I'd really like to, but whether I can or not you have my best wishes for peace in the family in what could be called your personal winter. I hope this dark season does not last long.

Cheers,
Festy_Dog

 

[The Forsaken One]

Yeah and have some Tomato Fanta (Copyrighted TM and the works festy I know )

 

[Creamsteak]

Edena, I'm archiving the third IR to the IC forum, where it will get more public display than it has at the Gira sight. You will be remembered, and if you ever return (even just to comment to those of us that know you), we will be glad to see you.

I would like to see you come back now and then just to converse, but your choice and methods are your own. Even when you ran the IR we (the players) never really had 'conversations' with you, everything was so focused on the game. I, personally, hope to see your posts now and then -but I don't demand it of you.

 

[Kalanyr]

Not sure what to say except to wish you well.

 

[Serpenteye]

I wish there was something I could do to help you, Edena, but there is little I can do. All I can do is offer my condoleances and hope that somehow things turn around for you. I would offer you this advice, however, though it might feel impossible for you to follow;

You have lost your family, a terrible thing to loose. You feel depressed and unwilling to face the world, I've felt the same way. I have some understanding of how hard it might be for you. I't a natural reaction to turn introverted and isolate yourself, but is is, ultimately, a very self-destructive thing to do. You say you have lost your family, but maybe there are still some family ties that can be repaired, I don't know. I do know that you still have friends, a lot of friends, on-line and, probably, irl, friends who can support you and distract you from the pain, unless you turn away from them. Stay with us, Edena. I know it's hard, life is hard, but it's the best way for you to feel better. Eventually the pain will pass, I know.

 

[Sixchan]

I know you never knew me, but I read the IRs, and I at least feel I know you. Sorry to hear about everything, especially since you were my main motivation in Coming here.

I've had some pretty harsh family break ups (my mother was completely alienated from the rest of her family), and I know this must be hard for you, but be strong. You'll survive, and I'm sure you can pull your family back close.

 

[William Ronald]

Edena,

I am sorry that you are in pain, my friend. You will remain in my thoughts and in my prayers.

If you read this, know that there are people who respect you and care about you. I hope that one day you will return. I wish I could help.

You have suffered a great loss. However, I think there are a lot of people who are here for you. I must second Serpenteye's thoughts, and hope that you can reunite your family. I have seen wounded hearts healed, although some wounds are difficult to heal. I hope that your heart will be healed and those of your family will be as well.


If you can, try to contact some of us. You have friends who are ready to be strong and supportive. (If your local library has a computer, maybe you can set up an e-mail account on yahoo or another free service and contact us. I just learned about this thread.)

You have been a friend, and a person I have grown to respect. Terry, I pray that you will come through this time to better days.

Peace