My weird experience today.
I realized that there was something that hadn't happened recently. Which I always looked forward to, and I was thinking, "Huh, that's weird. Maybe I missed it."
So I did a quick search, and ... it hasn't happened since something that really made me angry. And I was like, oh, it couldn't have been that bad, right?
But then I looked at what specifically made me so angry, and I got just as angry when I saw it again as I was originally. Which was weird.
Now I am in a state of conflicted emotions. I started by thinking about something that made me happy and that I missed. I ended by being angry and happy it was gone. I don't think my anger killed it (I don't have that power), but I'd like to think it extended into the universe to throttle it. Which is ... pretty unhealthy thinking. But also makes me kind of happy?
It's the definition of mixed emotions. Like watching your house burn down... with 20 bards trapped inside of it.
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