Promises. Or rather, the failure to meet them. That kept going through Steef's mind, and that for once, maybe just this once, it would be different.
The first was the day he lost his father. He was 5, maybe 6, and was accompanying his father on his daily woodcutting outings. More to get him from under the foot of his mother, who was busy nursing his newborn sister. Just another day, until a deadfall knocked his father out. Young as he were, he knew things weren't good and he promised his unconscious father he would bring help. But by the time he returned, his father was dead.
When he was old enough, his mother tried apprenticing him out, and he always promised he would try his best, but he was either too clumsy or too dumb to stay for long, and his only semi-permanent occupation was a stevedore (and coincidentally a nice pun on his name).
When his mother caught lung fever and made him promise to take care of his sister before she died, he failed in that, too. She fell in with the mayor's boy, who later disavowed ever meeting her. With a rapidly bulging stomach, a hasty marriage was arranged with the town simpleton, but that never quite stopped the wagging tongues.
In time though, his sister actually grew some affection for her husband and things seemed to start settling down. That was until the recruiters came, exhorting the glory of the Dragon Queen, and proclaiming the riches that would come to the followers. Only the down-and-out or the dimwitted join, and naturally, so did his brother-in-law. In tears, Steef's sister begged him to follow to look after him, and so he promised he would.
As usual though, things started falling apart soon. On the way to Greenest, he got separated into a different squad (not only with a complete stranger, but 4 yapping lizards, no less!) and in the ensueing chaos, he lost track of his brother-in-law. His only hope was to get through this night, and hope that when the cult regathered after the raiding, they could each other again. And maybe for once, he could keep his promise.
In the meantime, the loot wasn't that bad...