Of course you know what you meant to say.
I can only go by what you actually said, and the context in which that statement occurred.
It's quite clear, now, that you meant something rather different from the words you used--particularly given the context around the word "perfectly", which bespoke of a very strong sense, not the weak minimalist sense.
One would almost say that this reflects a situation where you made a choice that was neither eminently rational nor eminently pragmatic, but instead ran counter to your intended aims!